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We celebrated Simon's first birthday this last weekend. I made these streamers after searching for DIY homemade decoration ideas online. It's so simple, but incredibly festive. Cut strips of fabric, and tie them to yarn or string. Voila. I hated taking them down, but they will be used again. I made a chocolate cake, decorated with dinosaurs. I also tried my hand at homemade oreos and

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Little brother is one today! He's healthy and happy and just the most delightful little person ever. I am so thankful for him.

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"Just wait til you have a girl...you'll understand." *Sigh*

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Clouds fuel my creativity, with blazing sunsets, or the quiet of the stars and moon poking through at night. Wide open skies deliver a variety of guises - blue, crisp days; stormy, gray afternoons; always windy, except for a few select days. I'm finding beauty here.

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As follow up to my last post, here is a sample of some of the notecards I've been working on. All are done in pen and ink. 

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Things I'm thankful for: Beautiful sunsets lately Wonderful weather A little boy who is walking now Spotting a woodpecker on several of our walks Family  Some fun new notecards I've made A sweet husband

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Two weeks ago I woke up feeling rotten. L left for work, and I proceeded to spend the morning in the bathroom, very sick. Poor Simon was screaming outside the bathroom door, missing his nap and knowing something was wrong. I called L at work later that morning and he could hear Simon crying while I tried to tell him something was wrong through my own tears. He was working in town that day, so he

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Thank you for your words of support and remembrance in regards to Lyra's second anniversary on Sunday. We had a low key day, and then did some star gazing that evening. Oh, how we love and miss her! ---- (I contemplated not putting this on here. But I've used all our names but L's, and you can glean most of our information from other places on the blog, so I just went with it. I didn't

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Lyra, Two years without you. Love and miss you more than you know. Mom

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Angie mentioned over on her blog about some of the ways she decorated for christmas. It got me thinking about how we've decorated our house this year. I made a pom pom garland this year (I followed this tutorial). I love it. I think I could make a pom pom garland for any activity throughout the year...bright spring like ones or dinosaur colored ones for Simon's birthday. I guess these colors

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I'm wrapping presents in brown paper this year. I've gathered paper bags from the grocery and have a roll of brown paper as back up. I use yarn to finish off the presents, penning a flourished first letter of the person's name in place of gift tags. It feels simple. Which is just right. The smooth brown planes of paper wrap each gift without exuberance. Without proclaiming some magical time of

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This past Sunday, Simon and I traveled with my family to my old college town. The choir was performing the Me.ssiah and it would also give us a chance to update Lyra's grave. I never know whether I'm supposed to smile in these pictures. "Look how great I look in front of my daughter's grave!" I inevitably smile because it's just what I do when there is a camera. But it feels funny. Simon was

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Here are a few snapshots from the surrounding area. Surprisingly our area of Kansas isn't all flat. Obviously I've played around with filters, but these are a few of my favorites.

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I'm a bit behind in showing this, but we had a Day of the Dead art swap this year, which I was so excited to do again. Last year, we worked with the artist trading card size. This year we worked with the idea of textiles. Below is the picture of what all was sent by everyone involved: Potholder- Amy, Potholder- Kelly, Sketchbook holder- Ines, Crocheted skull- Beth, & Felted skull- Angie. Aren't

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When we lived in California, we became more aware of our food choices. Not necessarily organic, but where it came from and how it was produced. We helped good friends garden and ate the deliciousness that was produced there. We tried to make things from scratch and tried to be more conscientious of how we treated our surroundings. Our move back to Kansas made for some bumps, but we continued

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I had a baby shower to go to this past weekend. The family had twin boys, but one only lived for three hours after birth. We were out of town for the memorial service, so I put something in the mail for them to show we remember him. I wanted to be sure and attend the baby shower though, since that is also a big part of their lives...raising his brother (and his older siblings).  I found this

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You'll find us with our Day of the Dead from a delightful swap, and a little monster outfit today. Wishing you all some fun for Halloween (31st) and full of remembrance and celebration of those gone too soon for the Day of the Dead (1st & 2nd).

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Angie has again created a beautiful idea for a project that we can all participate in. Consider joining.

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Yes, I did another sewing project, and it turned out pretty great...in my own opinion :) This is a portable track and storage toy thingy that I made for a Christmas present. Pinterest, of course, led me to this wonderful project.

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I received the play "Rabbit Hole" by David Lindsay-Abaire as a gift from a dear friend (I haven't seen the movie yet). I've had it for a month now I think, and haven't cracked it open yet. L read it the week after we received it. He said that it was good, and that I'll cry. And I know I will. I know it will make me think, and bring to the surface emotions and thoughts. And I just need to dive

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(I'm all out of whack with the blog world. Onceamother is not doing the Friday Rainbow Baby Blog Rodeo today, but I missed last week, so I'm catching up.) We are on the go here. Simon's been working on crawling for a while now...getting up on a knee and two arms, but not quite getting the fourth leg right. But the last two days everything's clicked, and he's inching his way around now. He

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I'm a bit behind, but still posting before the Friday hours dry up here. We've had some glorious cool weather as of late, and have been taking many walks and enjoying the chance to be outside without toasting ourselves. The last time I checked in, we were headed to a wedding. Traveling is still rough. We missed most every nap that whole weekend, which made for one fussy baby...understandably.

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I don't know when I noticed it. It's a gradual thing sometimes, like the tide going out. You're sitting there and you feel like you've been present and aware, but you look down and it's gone. I'm tired of discovering nuances of grief...of baby death. There's the initial shock, the loss of self, loss of friends, difficulties of a pregnancy after loss, and then there's having a living child. And

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Simon is 7 months old now, and doing so well. He's really working on his "m's", and sometimes sounds like he's saying "momma" (as you'll hopefully see in the video below. Please ignore my voice.). He tries to get on all fours, but his one leg gets caught up in front, so he's kind of a tripod at times. He scoots a little bit on his bum too. But his most trusty mode of transportation is still

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I did an earring holder project a while ago, but it didn't last. After moving, I needed a new place to hang my plethora of earrings. Now, I LOVE earrings, but Simon is Mr. Grabby right now, and so I've been abstaining from wearing them for the sake of my poor little ears. So after a few insightful pins I saw on p.interest, I made my own. I used an old frame, some fishing wire, and nails. I

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This project is years in the making. We first experienced art hops...art crawls...final fridays...sound familiar? The art galleries or other organizations in the city open their business up after hours once a month, for art displays and wine and snacks and you go from place to place...that kind of thing. We loved it. We had good friends we'd go with, and it was grand. I worked at a grad school,

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The next project I've worked on was for a variety of things...two for friends, one for myself, and two for the Auction for Mikayla's Grace and Forever in Our Hearts Remembrance Day that is being held through the 25th. I did these all after Simon is put to bed. I'm finding the evening hours are the best time to work on artsy projects...

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"August 19th is about honouring and remembering the lives of babies and children that could not stay with us. By doing this we are speaking out about the death of babies whether it is through pregnancy, infant or even child loss."~Carly Marie Remembering Lyra, and all the other sweet babies who are gone too soon. ----   On a very different note, today is: This past week, Simon has taken to

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The 18th rolls around again, signaling 20 months without Lyra. ---- As mentioned in my post Tuesday, I've been working on some various projects. There's the necessary projects, such as laundry and vacuuming that do get done (I promise). And then the more fun projects, which I've decided to show you over the next several days. Today I'll show you the purse I sewed. That's right...I used the

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Recently I've been thankful for: 1. Rain. We have gotten a smidge of it as of late. 2. Green smoothies. I've been mixing strawberries, bananas, yogurt, spinach, milk, and honey. The banana and strawberries cover the spinach taste well. I found some other yummy recipes, and hope to make those too. 3. Projects. I've had some time in the evenings to work on some projects, which feels really good.

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At almost 6.5 months old, Simon measures in at 30 inches long and 20.7 lbs! He's now made his way into the 75th percentile, but is just tall for his age...he's in 12 month clothing. I thought the hatred of his car seat had passed, but he had an atrocious trip yesterday. He's perfected this shrieking squeal that is really something. Still hoping it passes at some point, but feel bad for him still

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I look at him and wonder how beautiful she would have been. I mean, she was beautiful. I figure if the dead can be beautiful, then logically they would have been even more beautiful with breath flowing and blood coursing through their bodies. And I imagine her little spirit adding to her physical beauty and ache for never having known it...never having seen the twinkle and gleam in her eye.

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Blogger was being a pain, and it messed with what I was doing, so this went ahead and published early. I'm just going with it.---- There's not much terribly new to report this past week. We've tried some brown rice cereal, and he seems to enjoy it...he leans in for more. I have to use two spoons...I rotate between them as he "helps" feed himself. We will mostly BF still, but we can work our way

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Three things I'm thankful for, or excited over, or just a listing of shtuff. 1. The band Mumford and Sons. New discovery for me...I know, I'm late to the music scene 2. August. Because August means cooler weather...and moisture....right!?  *looks to the sky and shakes fist* 3. A yummy, yummy carne asada recipe that reminded me of when we lived in California. It's simple, but delicious.----Are you

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This is now our updated living room. We bought couches for the first time, and have comfortable places for people to sit now! L picked the purple color for the accent wall, after mulling over the possibilities of orange, red, and green. It goes nicely with our muted purple chair, and the "granite" color of the couches. We wanted an area that would be a good location to read, play games, watch

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Simon is six months old in two days. Um, when did that happen? I've propped my eyes open so I don't miss anything, and it still goes too fast.  Of course after stating last week that he wasn't rolling from back to front, he promptly did it the next day. He's a rolling machine now. Which I assume is what is throwing the glitch into his falling-to-sleep abilities. We won't get into that. But once

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I've gotten her constellation on a necklace, and of course every few months I get an itch to do something else as a reminder of her. So after seeing this, I decided to do my own. I've not done embroidery before, so it's not the most impressive showing of skill, but I still like how it turned out.

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Three things I'm thankful for today are: 1. I've gone a week without drinking any pop! I love a good pepsi or dr. pepper, but I'm looking to cut out useless foods/drinks. I'm now no longer craving it, so I hope I've passed the hard part :) 2. Swimming. I love it. I've been swimming laps twice a week and it just feels so good. 3. L made us a tablecloth. I know, not real exciting right? But

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Simon is learning to inch his way around the floor by laying on his back and kicking furiously. He also can rotate in a circle that way. He seems to reach for things with his left hand more, but we aren't sure that means anything yet.  His current obsession is with books. We can't read a book without him wanting to maul it. We have an 'indestructible' book, and it's taking quite a beating, but

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I look over the mess of files, trying to decipher the method to my madness. I remember exactly what had come over me. “My daughter just died. Did we really just bury her?” How could this have happened without me knowing? My daughter just died.” My freelance design project turned out to be due immediately after Christmas, just two weeks after we found out Lyra's heart stopped beating. There was

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---- And on a not so wordless note: Did you know that the "Right Where I Am" project had 160 participants? I read that in the wee hours this morning and my jaw dropped (I've obviously fallen behind in my reading of them all). And then I read from Angie's post that Josh at JACKatRANDOM created something that pulled the whole project into one unifying piece. It's amazing. I feel all mushy gushy

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I seem to be in a rut, but I'm working on sharing projects I've been doing, and I'll be trying to do more weekday "assignments"...such as Thankful Tuesday, Wordless Wednesday, etc. Those give me an idea of what to shoot for. We'll see how it goes. So bear with me, and if you have time I'd love to know if I still have anyone following or not. It'd be a nice little boost of confidence :) ---- 3

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I'll share some of the artsy things I've done recently:Pen/Watercolor wedding shower gift As requested, photos of the flip flops I refashioned. L's father's day present. I repainted the frames and then hung items that were important for that day. I like that we can exchange out any of the pictures or notes, for things Simon will do in the future, or for remembering Lyra or really anything. The

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I write this post on the tail end of several other bloggers already having written about something similar. Of course I didn't mark who the blogger was, and my mind is crap and can't find the two posts that I am thinking of...please forgive me. I'd like to be sure and say that I'm not writing in response to those posts...I appreciated the dialogue and experience of the women who wrote. I'm

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Attended our first funeral since Lyra died this past weekend. A son, aged 51, was laid to rest and remembered by his family. Simon kept me distracted. I too easily make connections and feel things too deeply since Lyra...a lingering element of the selfish mode and self care that I was...or still am in sometimes. I had to continually remind myself that it wasn't about me. ---- I still notice

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Your children aren't supposed to die before you do. It still applies when they are grown up. Thinking of a mom and sister who are mourning the loss of a son and a brother. We are sorrowful with you.

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It's Friday, and it just so happens that Simon is five months old today! Since last week he's made tremendous progress on sitting up. He can do it on his own for a little bit, though still pretty wobbly and needs help still. He has enjoyed practicing standing too...his little chunky legs are getting quite strong. And of course I jinxed myself by saying he slept through the night last friday,

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We have a nice camera. We bought it when pregnant with Lyra in anticipation of the billions of pics I'd take of her. She died, so I took billions of pictures of our cat, Dinah. We have Simon now, and I take billions of pics with my i.pod touch (dinky camera). Um...what? I've been ruminating on the reasoning behind my affinity for using my dinky camera over our nice camera. A nice camera means

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Check out Once A Mother's blog to find out more about how to be a part of the Friday Rainbow Baby Blog Rodeo :) Simon has been enjoying his feet soooo much. He's sleeping through the night now, and screeching and squealing as he learns how to do new things with his voice. Swimming is no big deal...he kicked happily away and even got a little drowsy. He's pretty easy going, unless it's nap time,

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I'm sitting here in a quiet house, listening to the loud wind outside. There is always wind. I thought it was windy in our last location, but where we are now is even windier. Good hair days only happen if you stay inside and never leave the house. And if there are a few moments of no wind, you about fall over because you're so used to leaning into it all the time. It's a constant. Which is

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In the wee hours this morning, I saw LeLeIsMe tweet about losing her twins...again. Send some extra love her way will you? 

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Harking back to this project  and this project again, I think I've got it finished. I did a terrible job on the collage part, as you can tell by the bubbles and bumps of it all. But I love it nonetheless. Not allowing my Critic to get me down on this one. "Cosmic Love"Mixed Media

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If you haven't already, please consider doing a post to be a part of the "Right Where I Am" project. It's a beautiful and encouraging look at where we as a baby loss community are all at in our different journey's. I'm still working my way through many of the posts, and find the honesty and varying grief experiences just amazing. Not the grief itself, but how others have dealt with it, or viewed

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Two random projects I've done recently: repurposing flip flops from this tutorial, and a watercolor doodle. ---- L told me last night that he had seen two redheaded children in a local restaurant lately...one girl and one boy. She was older than her brother, and it made L think about Lyra and Simon. ---- It was Memorial Day weekend here in the U.S. this past weekend, and we got together with

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For the initial jump start for this post, jump over here. ---- One year and five months makes it sound like a long time has passed since Lyra died. I suppose it kind of is. I now have Simon here...almost 4 months old. Things have changed. We've moved twice since she's been gone. We have a  house now. We have new neighbors...hell, we have a new town. That in itself changes everything.  The

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Her constellation necklace and Simon.

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"The depth of the feeling continued to surprise and threaten me, but each time it hit again and I bore it...I would discover that it hadn't washed me away."  This quote is taken from Anne Lamott from her book "Traveling Mercies".  

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I'm reading Anne Lamott's "Operating Instructions: A Journal of My Son's First Year". She's real and rough around the edges. I like her honesty, even if she's hell bent on hating certain political parties or admitting she's struggled with all sorts of addictions and difficulties. Her friend challenged her to write down something about her son everyday, and that's how this book came about. Some

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I've had two friends mention this past week that they know someone who has lost recently, or will inevitably lose their baby. It shook me a bit, tapping into those feelings I've compartmentalized since Simon has been here. Reminders of those moments of raw pain and grief...knowing that two families will suffer and everything in their lives will be touched by this event. One of my friends asked me

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I'm a day late. The 18th of every month used to scream out at me...mocking me with yet another month without my daughter in my life. Eventually, and I don't know when exactly, I became lost to what day it was, even in regards to the 18th. Some days I'd be filling out some paper work or writing a check and realize it was the day...however many months out from the original day in December. Even if

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We have three bedrooms in our house, all of which have vinyl wallpaper. And it was completely obvious it had to come off. We are people of color...in that we need our house, more specifically, our walls, to be colorful. In our first apartment we painted the walls bright blue and apple green. We had a bright red velour chair that I loved. In our subsequent apartments/houses, we've used paintings

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We never get a gradual spring warming here in Kansas. We get hot one day, then it drops 30 degrees the next day, just to bounce right back up to higher temps again. Despite the sporadic warming, it is beautiful and we are enjoying the time to be outside for walks and grilling. What I'm most excited about is the chance for my Lyra tattoo to be visible again, and not hidden beneath socks and shoes.

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I'm contemplating the theme for Photo Monday at Still Life 365. Below is a short synopsis...check out Still Life 365 for more details. Consider joining in this month.----APRIL THEME: WATERThe challenge with Photo Monday is to take a picture that explores your grief using the theme of water. If you find you are having trouble getting a creative visual idea, post a help message in the comments

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Snapshots from the weekend: Hanging with Grandma New tiger at Lyra's grave Meeting the 11 day old son of our good friends Showing off his new tiger outfit

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Well, we are moving ahead in our remodel of Simon's room. I've been working on the pictures for his room, and below are some sketchbook workings of what I think I'll do. He's got so many monkeys and frogs and land creatures on his outfits and toys, I thought I'd bring out some sea creatures for him to get used to. Just because we're land locked doesn't mean he can't know about the sea :) L has

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It's been forever since I've blogged...and I feel justified in all that's been going on. But when I sit down to list what I do on a daily basis, it doesn't seem like I'm really doing all that much. I can follow blogs on my phone now, but it's harder for me to comment. So please forgive me for being so quiet in response to all that is going on with your lives. We are all moved and "unpacking" and

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Lyra, This week is a big one for many of your friends as it's their one year birthdays. They've reached milestones, and created memories that will never be forgotten. Parties are being planned for them...cakes being made and candles bought to be blown out. I haven't been a part of many of their lives...it's been really hard for me to see what we've missed out on. It hasn't been fair to their

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I'm writing this rather quickly, in between feedings, so it may be disjointed due to the rush. I did want to get a bit of his birth story out, and some of my thoughts so far. ---- A blizzard was settling into the region as we drove to the hospital early that Tuesday morning. No snow had stuck yet, but it was swirling with the feisty wind and knew it was forecasted to get worse. I was just

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I have a live baby. And that's kinda weird. It shouldn't be. Lots of people have live babies. But since Lyra died, I didn't trust it would actually happen for us again. Call it lack of faith, or optimism or good mojo. And we worked so hard to keep Simon alive and well while I was pregnant. That was our entire mindset - was to just make it the next appointment with a heartbeat and as few issues

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It's blurry, but it's my favorite. And the image is huge due to my one handedness at the moment and needing my other computer. I think he's great. It all seems surreal still. So thankful though.

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Simon is here! Basics are: He arrived after induction on the first at 2:59pm He weighs 8lbs, 13oz and is 20.5in. (sorry my metric friends) He's perfect and healthy and we are so thankful he is here safe. More to come later, but thank you for all the love and support over the last 24 hours...the last year. Time for some zzzzzzz's now. Much love.

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I'm ready to get this show on the road!

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I had a very kind individual who knows about Lyra, tell me in excitement for Simon's arrival, that it's amazing how much one's heart will grow with the birth of this first baby. I calmly agreed, saying in my head that I knew how much a mother's heart grows...I experienced it with Lyra. That this was not my first experience with loving a child. Though I didn't get to bring Lyra home and nurture

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Last Friday I got a call about the echo and scan report. Cyst still on the brain. Head still measuring large. The echo was clean though, so that's a good sign. Today was my last appointment before being induced. At 38 weeks the sono tech measured Simon at 8lbs 3oz, but also reminded me that their equipment was usually on the heavier end of measuring, by maybe half a pound. One week left though,

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I had another dream about Simon. He was newborn, and we were in California again. I wanted to take him to the beach, so I jumped on my bike and had him in a sling I think. It brought back good memories of traveling through the state and the scenic variety of mountains to agricultural plots to beaches. And added a bit of hope that he might just arrive safely. ---- No report was sent to my doctor

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This post, paired with the last post, are perfect examples of the dual mindset I have right now. One shows a woman full and very pregnant...how lucky and grateful I am to be in this state of life again. Today is showing emptiness...a previous experience, or a continued experience as a BLM? I know I've belabored this point, but I just miss Lyra. And despite the goodness of Simon, and our

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One of my birthday gifts was a collection of 36 Copic markers. This was one of the better doodles I've done in practicing with them. I have a ways to go until I'm confidant with them, but I like what versatility they seem to provide. Of course I didn't sketch this in pencil, so after I'd outlined the background circle I saw how obviously un-circle like it was, all I could really do was grumble.

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Unofficially, his heart looks fine according to the tech. Cyst is still there. The official report from the specialist with be available next week, if there are to be any hidden "you should be aware of" statements. Officially, this kid still has a massive head and is 6 lbs, 13 oz. Officially, a February 1st induction date was set for me yesterday.  Officially, thank you for your thoughts, love

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So, this arrived in the mail yesterday! I ordered it from etsy, and am super excited to have this as my necklace for Lyra this coming year. This artist customized it specifically with the Lyra constellation, and I'm just thrilled to start wearing it! And it was perfect timing as today is my birthday. I don't remember much of my birthday last year...everything was still really foggy and we

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I haven't been doing hardly any art. But I did finally finished the cover to my personal sketchbook. I started my 9th one in July, and it took me 7 months to finish doodling on it. And then an added bird doodle for a bonus. ---- The major events in the five years of our marriage have generally been unplanned. We essentially fly by the seat of our pants. And we seem to do everything in stress

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Simon is still measuring ahead. He always passes his biophysical with flying colors too. Today the doctor checked me out and I'm at 3 cm dilated, and 90% effaced. He was surprised, but not at all concerned. He believed Simon would come before our 39 week induction plan. We'll just see when this little guy comes. I've read that people sit at this stage for 2 weeks, and all sorts of variations in

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As I stumble to the bathroom for the fourth time in the night, the thought crosses my mind that this interrupted sleep is good practice for when the baby is here. I envision holding her and feeding her and rocking her back to sleep. Then I groggily chastise myself for forgetting that it will be Simon, and not Lyra. I'd think an entire year without her would change that...that having seen his boy

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This is what we're supposed to do right? Reflect and acknowledge what this year gave to us? As if the clock turning 12am suddenly changes all the crappiness from the previous year to golden unicorn dust? But it's obviously important, or else everyone wouldn't participate in it or wish for the next year to be better or set goals or feel renewed despite it taking 3 weeks to remember to write the

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L and I got married five years ago today. The song I walked in to was Howie Day's "Collide".  Listening to it at various points in our marriage, it's always been meaningful. In the good times we remember the excitement we had getting married and in being together and having no clue what this song really was about or what it could mean to us. In the hard times, when there's doubt, confusion and

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Bio-physical looked good: Simon opened his mouth and swallowed, grabbed at his face, and is measuring ahead at 5lbs, 9oz. The cyst has not grown.  According to the specialist who works with my doctor, his head size is in the 97th percentile (1.9 on the standard deviation scale...macro.cephaly is usually diagnosed at 2.0). Pair that with the cyst, and that is enough of a concern to warrant an

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One year has come and gone. I so appreciated everyone's words of encouragement and remembrances. L and I didn't do much...we're still figuring out what tradition we want for each year. I lit some candles and we just had a nice evening together remembering her and loving her. Still processing what happens now, if anything. No magical switch has been flipped and our grief is now erased and we're

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My doctor was irate about the sonogram mix-up, so he made sure I got in today to get the cysts checked out. Simon decided to burrow his head down in my pelvis so the tech had a hard time seeing his brain. After a bit of work she saw there was one cyst still remaining on the left side (boo); the one on the right had disappeared (yay). The doctor's not concerned about there still being a cyst,

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Everything preterm labor related says to go to the hospital if you have more than 4 contractions in an hour and back pain and you know the list...so I went into the hospital Sunday night.  I was hesitant to go in because it was the same day we went in to the hospital to check on Lyra one year ago. They monitored me for a while and did the "check to see if labor might happen in the next two weeks"

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Today through this next Sunday starts Lyra's last week. It will play out in my head, which isn't a new or unusual aspect of my grief. It's just more prominent because it's her week...each day significant in the ironic failure of my pregnancy with her. ---- I'm seeing a therapist for individual therapy now.  ---- I didn't send out Christmas cards again for the second year in a row. I'm hoping

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L and I had decided that we weren't going to really decorate for Christmas this year. We put up 4 items, and called it good. Today however, L called and told me to come join him for a late lunch break. When I showed up to his work, he whisked me away to a local tree farm to pick out a tree for our apartment. He knows how much I love surprises :) So here is our fabulous tree! Dinah is fairly

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Feeling positive after my doctor's appointment today. We have scheduled the cyst checking sonogram for next week! AND weekly bio-physicals will be added to my normal weekly appointments from now on...woohoo! I'm more than happy to comply when we'll be seeing how many times Simon moves during a certain time period, and keeping and eye on the amniotic fluid and everything...every single week! I

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I've been working on Christmas presents, which I of course can't take pictures of and display. I also worked on a family painting for someone who recently lost their first child at 25 weeks. Also forgot to take a pic of that. So, I don't really have all that much to prove that I've been somewhat creative. You'll just have to believe me :)

Curls O Fredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09811996974976569965noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5752413284065196776.post-42063361749660142162010-12-03T08:54:00.000-06:002010-12-03T08:54:59.617-06:00

Today I'm 30 weeks, 3 days pregnant. I've never been this pregnant before. This is new territory I'm stepping into.

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A small section of the giant painting. I'm feeling really good about it. I have quite a few bumps and wrinkles from the collage part of it, but I'm not fretting about it. It's a learning process :) ---Bullet point listing time:- I got my hair trimmed today. Always feels good to just let someone else take care of something like your hair. My stylist is super easy to talk to and it's always a

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Today marks the beginning of the 30th week of this pregnancy. My irrational side says this is when doom ensues. My rational side says doom can ensue anytime...not just at 30 weeks. Ha...real positivity, eh? Lyra died sometime between 30 weeks - 30 weeks, 2 days. The freakish nature of not having a cause or my not having felt any pain or symptoms of placental abruption haunt me. Not knowing that

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Hands were held around the table as the blessing was said. The smell of delicious food wafted up and the nieces and nephews squirmed and smiled as they waited for the words of thanksgiving to be completed. Some of the adults breathed a sigh of relief as they were hungry and ready to eat, while others took a sigh of relief as they finally got to sit down for a moment and take a break. Food was

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