Thursday, February 11, 2010



i feared the process
the unknown and its bite

the worst a woman can experience
that no man can understand

but now I know the truth

the needles
the bareness
the pushing
then silence

i can face the process
but not my life without her


  1. so true. my labor with Aquila was by far over and beyond what i had experienced with my previous 3. i kept saying "i can't do this" over and over. but after she came out, dead...well then i was really saying i cant do this. i would go back and labor for days for weeks if i could hold her alive..

  2. I'm so sorry for your loss. I found your blog through your comment on mine. Thinking about you and your precious baby girl. xx

  3. I am so sorry for your loss.
    I am so sorry that these words flow so freely from your thoughts.
    I am so sorry that I get it.
    I am happy to have found your blog. Your work is amazing.


  4. I am so, so sad to read of your beautifully put.