Monday, April 12, 2010


The high risk doctor had some new information for us, and some good news in terms of future pregnancy.

New information:
Lyra died from placental abruption. I guess they could tell from blood clots behind the placenta, and the Kliehauer-Betke test (which I'm not really sure what that is, besides the levels of fetal blood in my own). I had no symptoms...pain or it was virtually undetectable. I had no red flags in terms of my blood pressure, thyroid, etc. No drug use. No diabetes. So it still remains a freak accident. 

Good news:
The chances of it happening again are very slim (though slim chances are still very real to us). And there would be closer monitoring throughout the pregnancy. But I don't have any other complications or conditions to be concerned about. 

As I told some friends and family in emails, it's not a matter of medical hurdles to jump over now, it's just mental and emotional hurdles. I don't want to take anything for granted, or assume anything

We are opening ourselves up to a whole new level of being scared shitless. But I don't want to give up. I want brothers and sisters for Lyra. So, I guess we'll see if the road for that journey is open.


  1. Forgive me for weighing in where I have no reference point. I can't even liken an ounce of my experience to yours, nor would I ever try to.
    But as one mother to another, feel the solidarity when I say, every good *and honest* parent is scared "*hitless", at every stage, practically all the time.
    Bless you

  2. You must be sighing a little. I know it doesn't take the heartache of losing Lyra away and that the small percentage of having the same issues again is scary but it certainly is good news for the future, Rachel. xo

  3. Thanks for sharing the news. At least it's something you can move forward with. Blessings to you guys.

  4. Glad you have some good news for future pregnancies. They are scary - there's not really any way round that. We'll be here as you move towards that journey.

  5. everyone else here put it beautifully. i hope this news offers a small comfort that helps you breathe more easily as the days come. hugs. xo

  6. Glad you got some good news for the future. It's scary and chances seem to not mean anything anymore, but you have to jump, right? :) We'll be here for you every step of the way!

  7. We're in the same boat, although I still have to wait another month or two for the periods to catch. But it's terrifying and exciting at the same time. xoxo

  8. I wholeheartedly agree with Lacy. Most people can at least wait until the baby is born to start the constant worry, but losing Lyra means the terror will begin the moment you're pregnant again.

  9. I lost my sweet baby boy to the same thing. They called it a subchorionic hemorrhage. I had 2. The first wasn't significant enough to cause any harm to me or the baby, but the second was what took his life. Answers really do help to start you down a different road, but it will still be just as hard.