Tuesday, May 18, 2010

5.18.10

Lyra,


It's been five months already.


I went to Chicago. The last time I was there I was in my 2nd trimester with you, so the whole visit was tinged with little memories of what all we had done with you there. I had a really good time with A & M though. They were really good to me, even when I was grumpy and sad. You would have liked them - M would make you laugh, and A would just love on you. I'm sad you have to miss out on that.




I went hoping to reflect on how to be a better person - a better wife, a better mom. If we get to have a little brother or sister for you, I want to be as healthy a person as I can be. I know your Dad wants that for himself too. So, I thought a lot about everything. Losing you knocked us off the path a little bit - which isn't your fault. We just were so excited to have you and never even let it enter our minds that you could die. I think we're slowly getting on the right path to where we would like to be as individuals, and as partners.


Lyra, my dear, beautiful daughter - you are forever missed. 


Always loving you,
Mom



8 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry Lyra is not here.
    xo

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  2. Beautiful, heartfelt letter to Lyra. Thanks for sharing... Wish she could be right there with you...

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  3. Rachel- you've been on my mind so much. I'm glad your feeling like your back on the path. What a beautiful letter to sweet Lyra. Happy 5 month birthday baby girl.

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  4. Such a sweet letter to Lyra! xo

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  5. A lovely letter. XO thinking of you & Lyra.

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  6. Praying for you as you journey back to the path you desire to be on. Thank you for sharing this very touching letter to Lyra.

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  7. How generous of you to share this lovely letter to Lyra. Today's artwork is just lovely, such yummy purples and blues.

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  8. My heart aches for you, sweet mama. ((hugs))
    And I so love to come here and feast my eyes on your art. So beautiful.

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