"That is one of the strangest side effects of the whole story. I am a thing worse than a cautionary tale: I am a horror story, an example of something terrible gone wrong when you least expect it, and for no good reason, a story to be kept from pregnant women, a story so grim and lessonless it's better not to think about at all."
Elizabeth McCracken in An Exact Replica of a Figment of My Imagination (p.43)
FB continues to have announcements of births and pregnancy announcements. I have not put my news on there yet. I'm still waiting, "in case". I want to join in the mirth and joy and happy bubbles of "oohs and aahs." That's the normal thing to do. But I'm no longer normal. I may be pregnant again, but I still represent the nightmare of every pregnant woman.
Today is a yo-yo day. I feel like I want to start doing stuff for this new baby, but I'm waiting til tomorrow's appointment to make sure we're "in the clear". Up and down, up and down.