Sunday, August 7, 2011

Wonder

I look at him and wonder how beautiful she would have been.

I mean, she was beautiful. I figure if the dead can be beautiful, then logically they would have been even more beautiful with breath flowing and blood coursing through their bodies.

And I imagine her little spirit adding to her physical beauty and ache for never having known it...never having seen the twinkle and gleam in her eye.

I'm without her in this life. It's still hard to know that...to feel that.

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  1. These are heart-achingly, profoundly honest and brave words. I'm thinking of you and your beautiful Lyra tonight, and quietly abiding this with you. A warm hug to you, friend. X

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  2. She would have been so beautiful. It's so hard to look at our living children and wonder, how they make living look so easy, when their sister couldn't?
    I wonder every day how Florence would have been, I hate that mostly I'm just guessing.
    Love to you. x

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  3. I get this, I really do. Beautifully put.
    xo

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  4. Gosh I was thinking this same thing yesterday. It's amazing to me, and mind boggling, and heartbreaking all in one. She would have been son beautiful.
    xo

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  5. I am finding it more difficult as Thor gets older and having more of a personality, not to get lost in watching him, thinking how magical it would have been to see Lucy laugh until she falls down, or how beautiful of a girl she would have grown into...Lyra was beautiful. Thank you for your beautiful words this morning.

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  6. This post nails it for me too, even though I don't have living children. But I have my niece as a living ticker and there is not a day where she doesn't make me wonder about how he would laughed / danced / frowned. I would give everything to witness him throwing a tantrum even.

    I ache with you...
    Thanks for this wonderful post.
    xoxo

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  7. I wonder about my girl too. I see her twin and her little brother and I just can't help but wonder.

    Oh, that description of the twinkle in your Lyra's eye. I wish we didn't have to wonder about them. I wish we could see them in all their beauty xo

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  8. Thinking and praying for you. I wonder too what she would have looked like crawling around with a lil' diaper bum.

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