- Only had to wait 10 minutes in the waiting room
- Didn't cry as I sat in the room where I was told they couldn't find Lyra's heartbeat
- Smiled as I heard little S.uh's heartbeat
I guess making it to 12 weeks so far without going crazy is a feat in itself. I'll just try to keep the fear at bay and be hopeful, even if it's the stupid thing to do. I know what's possible- I'm not naive like before. I still feel like we'll be holding our breath. But I want this little one to be prepared for, like Lyra was. If this is the only time I get to be his/her mom, then I want to do all I can. Even if it means it's more painful if something goes badly.
But, to end this on a happy note, I promptly went and bought these after my appointment. I do crochet, but I can't make two things the same. I make one baby booty very well. But the matching one is usually two sizes bigger, even with my using the same pattern. So these are from a local, handmade store here in town.