Check-out lady: Is this your first pregnancy?
Me: No.
Check-out lady: When are you due?
Me: Early February.Check-out lady: When are you due?
Check-out lady: What day? Valentines?
Me: (Inwardly rolling eyes) Earlier. Babies tend to come when they want though.
Check-out lady: So true! Do you know what you're having?
Me: A boy.
Check-out lady: So you have two boys?
Me: No. My daughter was stillborn, so we didn't get to bring her home.
Check-out lady: Oh, I'm so sorry. Here's your change.
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I think I handled that better than I normally do. I was only on the verge of crying, and didn't break into my high pitched squeaky voice, so I'd say that's real progress.
I guess I'm at that point where I look like a small whale, and people will ask questions. And it will continue as I progress into a larger whale. (fyi, I like whales.)
One bonus of today was finding a garage sale that had some good quality baby clothes. I kinda start to look at the girls clothes, and then remember that I'm looking for Simon. I got him some cute corduroy overalls, and a Baby Bjorn carrier for uber cheap. These are good steps in preparing for him...hoping we'll bring him home with us.
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This weekend is crazy busy, so I might be absent the next couple of days. Will be thinking of everyone and their sweet babies tomorrow, and for the balloon release we're doing on Saturday morning. Much love to you all.
Glad you got through the check-out line OK. And it sounds like you did so with such grace, while honoring Lyra and your pregnancy and life with her. As I hope someday my pregnancy will be showing, I wonder how I'll respond to the innocent bystander's questions. I'd like to think it will happen similarly as to what you said.
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XOXOX
I think you sounded very graceful!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you handled a tough situation with such grace.
ReplyDeleteI'd love to read more about your balloon release.
Sounds very familiar to me. I didn't do too much to prepare for Angus, as most of the preparation was done for Hope, but I did dare to dream and buy a few blue items. Hard not to look at the beautiful pink stuff though.... Still feel that way now.
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*hugs*
ReplyDeleteit must be so hard. pregnancy is hard and terrifying enough.
xoxo
lis
Very well done, Rachel!
ReplyDeleteI struggle all of the time with the same question. It gets me every time... I am never sure how to answer... do I make the other person uncomfortable by telling them the truth or do I make myself uncomfortable by "lying" and then feeling guilty about not mentioning my babe who isn't here. Ugh.
I <3 overalls!!
xo
PS Have a fabulous weekend! Your little Lyra will be in my thoughts tomorrow as I light my candles.
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May I send you some Thor hand-me-downs?
ReplyDeleteOi. You handled that beautifully. I am impressed :) Have a . . . great? . . . weekend :)
ReplyDeleteSounds familiar. I always cry when trying to answer those questions. And I still look at little girl's clothes now.
ReplyDeleteThat's always a tough situation, but well done on your part! The mere mention of a dead baby will shut anyone up. I've found it can shut up even the most annoying self-absorbed, tactless big-mouths when nothing else can, which can be useful. However, it also makes "friends" flee in droves - not so good!
ReplyDeleteI'm proud of you that you were able to answer her questions, even though it was hard. Yes, more questions will come....
ReplyDeleteAnd we'll be thinking of you and other Baby Loss Mamas tomorrow. Many blessings
I still get a squeeky voice and tears when I tell someone new about her and am not always as courageous telling someone about her since I keep it myself sometimes. Way to go mamma telling her about Lyra. You make me want to be braver <3
ReplyDeleteThinking of her as I light a candle for Gracie tonight <3
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Thinking of you and your sweet Lyra tonight.
Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and Lyra...
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