Today through this next Sunday starts Lyra's last week. It will play out in my head, which isn't a new or unusual aspect of my grief. It's just more prominent because it's her week...each day significant in the ironic failure of my pregnancy with her.
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I'm seeing a therapist for individual therapy now.
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I didn't send out Christmas cards again for the second year in a row. I'm hoping that people know I care despite not getting them sent. Thank you to those who have still sent them to L and me despite our not reciprocating.
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Wishing everyone gentleness as we continue in this season.
Thinking of you this week and sweet Lyra. Gosh this is a rough time.
ReplyDeleteI started seeing my therapist in the last 4 weeks of O's pregnancy--I felt like I couldn't do it on my own anymore. It was good to have someone to just talk to without judgement--I wish you the same experience.
Hugs and love.
xo
I'll be thinking of you and Lyra this week. ((((HUGS)))))
ReplyDeleteOh, Rachel I have been there and it is a rough one. Although I must say that the days leading up to were far worse than the actual day... I hope you too find it this way. Thinking of you always.
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I'm thinking of you this week Rachel. I wish you gentleness too (what a wonderful wish by the way).
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you have a therapist on your support team now and I hope it's an awesome connection.
You & Lyra will be on my mind throughout this week, sending thoughts of love & hope for strength your way. I'm glad that you've found a therapist that can provide further support to you during this difficult time and I think its wonderful you value yourself enough to seek out that support ((hugs))
ReplyDeletethinking of you this week. this will also be the 2nd yr i didn't send out xmas cards. i'm sure people understand. and if they don't, they can go kick rocks. ;)
ReplyDeletelove to you...
Thinking of you as this week moves through. And Christmas cards.... I have not sent any since 2006. Do what you can and do what you need to do for yourself right now.
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Thinking of all four of you so much.
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You and L and Lyra won't be far from my thoughts and prayers this week.
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking of you. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI can't remember if I sent cards out last year, but I'm not sending anyouth this year.
Hugs
Sending love and gentleness. Such a hard time. We lost Z from placental abruption too (though in a car accident) - but I thought she'd be fine because I wasn't bleeding. I think the way you remember Lyra with your art is beautiful xxxh
ReplyDeleteRachel I will be thinking of you and Lyra all week. I wish I had words to comfort you.. my love, thoughts, and strength surrounds you.
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking of you.. and your beautiful angel this week. It is a tought one. Much more than the one from last year.. Hang in there. We will all be there for you.. Lean on in. Love, Brandy
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. What a difficult time to remember and at such a difficult time of year. Sending you hugs.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry at all about Christmas cards. I haven't sent one in several years. Hopefully you and I both will be sending very happy Christmas cards next year, and then everyone will understand at last.