Monday, February 6, 2012
I hated taking them down, but they will be used again.
I made a chocolate cake, decorated with dinosaurs. I also tried my hand at homemade oreos and shortbread cookies. I'd recommend both recipes to anyone. The shortbread cookies go particularly well with a cup of good tea.
I felt fairly emotional about Simon turning one. Everyone always barks at you how fast it flies by. And it's true. I look back at video snippets and pictures and wonder how he could change so much in one year.
But it makes me wonder about her.
Images of pinks and butterflies and frilly skirts vanish as I run a green J.ohn D.eere tractor over Simon's legs and up and over a chair. I love roaring dinosaurs and I look forward to catching turtles and making mud pies. I don't lament over anything to do with this sweet little boy that I'm lucky to have in my life.
The shadow babies that she would have been born with are coming up on two years this month. I guess they aren't babies anymore.
It's more subtle now, but echoes of her resound in every element of our lives.
And I'm not really saying anything new.